I’ve spent countless nights of thoughts constantly running threw my mind. Thoughts that caused insomnia for no apparent reason at all. I had thoughts for days, maybe weeks or even months of why my life couldn’t just be perfect. I was raised with nothing being handed to me on a shiny silver platter. Suddenly without going into much details, after the longest time I realized, I have so much to be thankful for.
We all have dreams, dreams are meant to come true if we try hard enough to make them happen. Life takes effort and motivation, little things i’ve been lacking. These little things come with support such as friends, and family. In our generation today, friends seem to matter most sometimes we even make them priority rather than family. Friendship to most people is what they take for granted, many have countless amounts of friends who probably wouldn’t even stand up for them if something were to go wrong. What happened to having strong friendships that we felt like would last forever? Friends who would call and make the night fly with so much laughter? Life can get so complicated and as we grow we learn that sometimes too many isn’t good. I’ve thought about all the mistakes I’ve made in my life so far, and I can’t say I regret any of them for they made me the person I am now. I’ve lost many and only gained a few. Turns out that the one’s I lost, they’re the ones that came back. Maybe I never lost them? I’m at an age where I’m here trying to find my place, my path, my life. Most of all, I’m here to make mistakes and learn from them. I know now that the people who are in my life might not be there forever, but in the meantime the one’s I care about, & the one’s who care for me, I’ll guard them with my life. I am not perfect, and I’ve made bad choices but then again who is perfect? Who always made the right choices? Throughout these sleepless nights, I’ve learned to master the word accept, I’ve learnt like everyone says how “everything happens for a reason”. I will accept the one’s who chose to stay and support me, the one’s who will stand up for me and help me up when I fall, and I will gladly open the door to the one’s who chose to leave. In the meantime, I will live to the fullest, I will grow and I will accept life’s perfect imperfections.